We have finally made the decision of what direction God is leading us down on our adoption journey.
We took a family vacation to Whistler Canada and got to visit all of our old friends in Washington. I started off the week still confused and frustrated but was so looking forward to a week of Aaron and I talking without too many interruptions and a chance to really look at our hearts. What we discovered was not pretty!
We realized the main thing holding us back in this process was not how hard it was to make a decision but how hard it was to submit to what God was calling us to and let go control.
I remember looking at my little family on this vacation and thinking this would probably be the last family vacation that it is just the 3 of us. I will honestly say it made me sad, then scared, then pleasantly happy. I was kind of a mess the first few days.
Out of all the direction and advise we have been given the one that stuck with us is pursuing Foster to Adopt. It is probably the messiness, scariest, and unpredictable of all the options (in my opinion) but we both feel God keeps leading us there.
The #1 advice we have gotten from so many wonderful families that have lived this journey is "Listen to God and you will know what He has for your family" we can confidently say this is the first time we truly feel like this is the direction we are suppose to pursue.
So it looks like we will submit our paperwork next week and start the certification process!
I will be completely honest. I personally have some heart issues I am working through. I am having a hard time realizing that I will get a call at 2am in the morning and will be asked if we are ready to take a kid in that has just suffered through something traumatic. I won't know much about this kid. I won't even know what it looks like! Why is my heart so horrible???? But how beautiful that God is working on that in me and teaching me it is about a bigger picture and that He knows the right kid for our home. There is no kid out there that isn't worth pouring unconditional love and blessings onto.
Until next time.....
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